this feeling fucking sucks. this was how I lost my virginity…a month and a half after I turned 16. Scratch that. I didn’t lose my virginity, he took it from me. two years passed before i realized sex wasn’t supposed to hurt the way it did that day. and i didn’t wanna tell anyone because everyone knew i had feelings for him, so I felt ashamed, it didn’t seem to make any sense. the day it happened we were in his room watching tv after school and I let him kiss me. i wasn’t ready to go any further. but he was. and he did. before I even knew what he was doing, he did it. and i can’t help it, i still blame myself. I was wearing a promise ring when it happened - a promise to myself that I’d save myself for marriage, or when I’m engaged, or at least when I’m in love. I remember feeling worthless the next day. I remember feeling relieved that he still wanted me, I even apologized for getting blood on his sheets. For a while I kept going back to him. I measured my self worth by how much he wanted me bc I didn’t think anyone else would. Like I was damaged goods.
That fucked me up
Whether you are a female or male, this issue needs to be stopped. It’s so heart breaking hearing people lose their virginity to someone who they don’t love, let alone a person they didnt want it to be with. This episode hit hard.
